Personal Reflections

Sharing the real-life, lived experience — and how overwhelming the multiple challenges truly are.

Personal Reflections share experiences, thoughts, and insights in a first-person journaling style—exploring emotions, lived events, and meaning in everyday life. There are no formal citations, only honest reflections.

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TODAY’S EMERGENCY CHALLENGES

Personal Journal Entry — November 1, 2025

(Journal Entry – November 1 2025)

Every day now means acting in spite of major depression and PTSD. There are never lull periods; the emergencies just build on top of one another, requiring focus every single day, seven days a week. I start around 5 a.m. and work until 2 or 3 p.m., when I need a short nap (one to two hours). Then I resume until about 9 p.m., when I finally go to bed.

With fourteen or more hours of work each day for over three years, I am exhausted. I still don’t understand why people wouldn’t help, but instead, almost every request results in something worse—another layer of crisis. Appeals I wasn’t notified of, attorney letters demanding immediate response, a case-manager no-show, a case assistant no-show, food funds cut off without notice—the list keeps growing.

Current Focus

Today’s focus is finishing the new Forced Inspection legal demands dated October 29 2025, which now include $100 fines every other week.
The issue is not only the inspection itself but that the assigned inspectors qualify as abusers under two of the four statutory criteria for abuse of a vulnerable adult. My evidence is clear and documented; the accusation is fully supported.

Living with PTSD

Life is difficult under any circumstances, but post-assault PTSD adds overwhelming anxiety and fear.
Known liars or fabricators are dangerous to allow into my home. What will they fabricate next? Their past fabrications have already cost me well over $10,000, and I’ll tabulate and document those losses when I can.

Financial Pressures

I must also make my HOA payment today—the due date is either the last day of the month or the first.
Which credit card can I even use? Each one carries exorbitant fees (28.8 % interest plus transaction fees).
After years of living debt-free, I now find myself forced to use credit just to survive.

My family will not help. The county could help, but my case manager continues to ignore statutory duties.
It feels inevitable that my $300,000 + in home equity will eventually be taken by the state when I die or am evicted—exactly as the condo board and their attorneys appear to intend.

Case Manager – No-Show

Monday, October 24 2025 (9 a.m. appointment)

Apparently something “came up.” I was terrified anyway; PTSD spikes whenever a stranger is scheduled to enter my home while no security system is in place.

That fear was compounded by the earlier Appeal Hearing failure. I refused to begin until my questions about the process were answered. The judge then went silent for over an hour before the line disconnected. I stayed on, leaving a verbal statement every ten minutes. Later, his letter claimed I had abandoned the appeal.
Obviously, he hung up. I remained on the line, patiently waiting.

It was nerve-racking—my housing stability depended on that hearing. The judge’s remark, “How would I know you are a vulnerable adult?”—while my case manager sat silently on the line—was deeply humiliating. She offered no confirmation or support. That silence spoke volumes.

Pattern of Neglect

The dismissal of the appeal seems to have signaled to her that she can do nothing without consequence.
She has been my case manager since early September; it is now November, and she has done almost nothing.

Her statutory duty includes reviewing my Year-to-Date Spending Report, which shows just 7 % of budget spent over seven months.
If spending falls below 50 %, she must investigate and document why. That has never occurred.

Her no-show reinforced the message learned from the appeal: you don’t have to do anything for your clients.

Ignored Safety Requests

My repeated requests for a security system—a required accommodation before allowing strangers into my home—remain ignored.
Each non-response heightens my PTSD. The meeting was never formally cancelled; she could have called or texted but didn’t.
My accommodation plan explicitly requires both a phone call and an email for last-minute changes.

The evidence supports that she was neither respectful nor concerned about the impact of her absence.
I try to extend benefit of the doubt—perhaps she became suddenly ill—but this is part of a long pattern.

Blame Reversal

Afterward, her emails implied that I had failed to send materials that could have been handled in the meeting.
That kind of reversal—turning her failure into my fault—is familiar.
When I recently tried to discuss this pattern with someone, they said, “Well, Tim, maybe you’re just not a nice person.”
That hurt deeply.

The message is always the same: if I am too direct or too upset, I risk punishment or neglect.
For the record, I am kind, generous, appreciative, and caring. Pain and exhaustion can limit emotional regulation, but clarity and directness are not aggression—they are survival.

Ongoing Barriers

She is now back in school and available only limited hours, making rescheduling difficult.
I have little energy left to navigate it again, especially amid other emergencies like the Forced Inspection letters.
I plan to review my recordings, letters, and emails in detail soon.
Even the judge made the same lesson clear: truth and diligence are punished; silence is rewarded.

Loring Green Association – Forced Inspection Letters

Current Attempt #2 (October 29 2025)

• Previous unannounced inspection caused door damage and ended with an attorney apology, but no reimbursement was made.
• A new attorney letter now demands payment for engineering firm charges related to that cancelled inspection.
• The same firm, Encompass Engineering, is already listed as an abuser under Minnesota’s vulnerable-adult statutes—so why should I ever be required to allow them entry?

During the prior attempt, I was in bed shaking with terror. I had not answered the door or phone, yet they began forcing the door against a barricade I built after police allowed my assailants to leave with my keys.
It took the Association several days to disable those key fobs, leaving me unsafe the entire time.

EBT Funds Stopped for Two Months

I desperately need food. My faxes and voice messages have been confirmed received, yet there has been no action.
This is ‘only’ $292 per month, but it is critical.
I don’t want workers to lose their jobs—many have been kind before—but after repeated inaction, what options remain?